Tuesday, December 30, 2008

Alan's Story, Part 1

One year ago today Alan received a liver transplant. For him, it was the beginning of a second chance at life. But it wasn't the beginning of Alan's story. I have been working on this post for a while and I thought today would be an appropriate day to share it.


Alan was born in November 2006.

He cried. A lot.

At first we called it colic, even though he didn't exactly fit the 'classic' symptoms of colic. He was also a little jaundiced. On him it was more of a pretty olive color than yellow, so it was hard to notice. Especially at first. There were also a couple of digestive issues - some things that were just "not right".

At a visit to the pediatrician when Alan was 9 weeks old, the dr. decided to run some extra blood tests "just to be sure" nothing major was going on. When we got home that evening there was a message on the answering machine from his office letting us know they had results, but by that time it was after closing time.

I called first thing the next morning and was put through directly to the pediatrician. Even in my inexperience, my gut told me that was a bad sign.

I was right.

The doctor explained some of the results had come back abnormal, which could point to some "plumbing issues" with Alan's intestines. He was in touch with our nearest Children's hospital to give us a referral to a gastroenterologist (GI).

When that appointment ended up being the very next day, our hearts sank a little more. Without knowing any specifics, the internet wasn't much help, and the most we could to was wait. That was a very long day and night.

Greg, my mom, and I set out early the next morning in freezing rain with an infant Alan for the 100 + mile trip to Children's.

By the end of the day, Alan had had a sonogram and bloodwork, been seen by a GI, and was being admitted to confirm his diagnosis.

To say this was new territory for us would be a massive understatement. I think we all 3 bit back tears (and the urge to turn and run) as we were led into a child's hospital room. A metal crib? Cheerful wall-paper? All that medical equipment on the wall? It didn't fit. It wasn't right.

But it was.

That was a Wednesday. On Thursday Alan went in for a liver biopsy, the results of which pointed even more strongly toward a diagnosis of Biliary Atresia (BA). (In short: a withering of the bile ducts leading away from the liver. The liver cannot drain bile and is subsequently poisoned, which leads to cirrhosis.)

Surgery - the only way to truly confirm a diagnosis of BA - was scheduled for the following Monday. I don't know what we did all weekend. I do remember it was around this time we saw Alan's first smiles. They were like seeing sunshine through the rain.

We didn't know what to pray for as far as the outcome of the diagnosis. At that time we knew so little about BA. Was that the diagnosis we 'wanted'? Were the other possibilities better? Worse?

We prayed for Alan's safety through the surgery and the wisdom of the physicians. We heard fairly quickly, that yes, Alan did have biliary atresia, and the surgeon was going to proceed with the only treatment there is - a kasai procedure.

Alan recovered well from the surgery and we left the hospital 9 days later with our 11 week old baby. He had a scar, a handful of prescriptions, and liver disease.

We were in a whole new world, and would never again be the same.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

..and stay by my cradle...

Tomorrow is the Sunday before Christmas! I've been looking forward to that almost as much I have been Christmas Day itself.

Greg and I will be doing our piano/trumpet duet - Silent Night.

Dale will be singing Away in a Manger again, and also singing with the other kids.

My sister and one set of grandparents are going to be there. Yay!

We got home tonight and I sat down at the piano to play through everything for tomorrow. Dale was putting on his PJ's, but Alan was right nearby.

As I started playing Away in a Manger, Alan grabbed the nearest piece of paper he saw for his 'music' and started singing along with me.

Jibberish for some of it, but often singing the correct word at the end of a line. To hear him sing the words "Jesus", "sky", "lay", "wakes" and others was unbelievably sweet.

My heart melted. Like a big old mushy warm marshmallow, all oozing everywhere.

My baby. Singing a song.

A beautiful Christmas lullaby.

It made me feel so so glad all over again that he is here with us. That he is healthy and happy and we are over the big hurdle of transplant.

Not much later I picked him up to hug him and love on him, and tell him how much I loved his singing.

The stinker bit me! (Something I've hardly ever seen him do!)

Love fest over.

But I don't want to ever forget the beautiful baby face and his precious, sweet baby voice singing that song. Before kids I never knew I could love someone so much.

"But Mary kept all these things, and pondered them in her heart." Luke 2:19

Friday, December 19, 2008

From tears to tacos

I got word today that our computer doctor is not going to be able to save anything from our laptop.

As in 'no data'.

As in 'all the pictures I have taken in the last 12 months'.

I cried.

And then I called Greg and cried to him.

And then I called my Mom and cried some more.

It was a sort of grieving, I think.

NO I hadn't saved them anywhere. Backed them up. Anything.

I know. Believe me, I've learned my lesson.

But - my mom the librarian went right to work and after some quick research told me there are companies that specialize in data recovery. For a *small fee* (ahem) you ship your disabled computer guts to these fine folks, they go into what they call a "clean room" (a dust-free environment) and disassemble the hard drive and rescue your data.

So there is hope.

In the meantime I am trying not to think about it and trying to keep it all in perspective.
While a devastating loss in my mind, it wouldn't be the end of the world.

Right? Right??

In brighter news, we are staying in a hotel tonight - visiting family tomorrow. Dale can't remember the last time he was in a hotel. And he is thoroughly enjoying himself.

Upon arrival: "Look at this! Look at that!! It has a TV!!! You can see out the WINDOW!!!!"

Imagine his excitement when we presented his swimsuit we had smuggled along and Daddy took him swimming in the indoor pool.

And to answer
Jennifer's question (thank you so much for making me laugh at our technological infirmities! - posting fairies - haha!)..... my previous post was done from my parent's computer. This one is coming to you courtesy of Greg's work laptop, which usually stays at work, but has come home for the holidays - lucky me! :)

Y'all have a good weekend!

P.S. - My sincerest apologies to housekeeping: despite my best efforts it STILL looks like a taco exploded near the window. That's what happens when a 5 yr old perches on the edge of his seat and eats a fast food taco. Next time we'll pack PBJ's. :)

Monday, December 15, 2008

They are just THINGS... right?


Y'all.

So I already told you our laptop fell ill. This was on Thursday afternoon.

Guess what happened Sunday evening?

The back-up 'old' computer crashed. And I do mean crashed, as in it was working one minute and the next appeared to no brain. Blank screen. No matter what we tried. It was a sad, sad moment.

So... long story short.... I am completely computerless.

And fairly fed up with technology.

I think I'm going to light a lantern and read a book.

And maybe someday I'll pop back in here to tell you about it. ;)


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Oh you KNOW I'm kidding. I'll be blogging the very day I have a working computer in my possession again... if not before!

But in the meantime, that lantern & book idea does sound kind of cozy!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

Saturday Shorty

Y'all are all aware that there are only 12 days left until Christmas, right?

11 if you count down to Christmas Eve, which I do.

We have a Sunday School party tonight. I'm bringing an olive cheese ball and fudgy mint cookies. I'm so tired of making cookies. I've lost count. Next year I think I'll bake a cake!

Had some holiday fun out with Dale last night, I've got a little video I'm hoping to post soon.

But for now, I've got to go get ready for our party!

Happy Saturday! :)


Oh yes... one more thing. My laptop is in the computer hospital... appears to be in a coma. No diagnosis or prognosis yet. I'm just hoping the doc can rescue my pictures!! I'm also wondering if it is contagious or coincidence?

Thursday, December 11, 2008

Online Dolch Word Games

I love this website! It's great for learning to read and/or spell Dolch words. Yay! Dale played it and loved it!

That page came from
this site, which has even more games.

At the bottom of either page, you can click "Back to Room 108" which takes you to
this page, with links to pages on Science, Math, and other subjects.

Just a little treasure I found this week and thought I'd share! :)

And a partridge in a pear tree

A few pictures from our Wednesday evening.

Dale helped get ready for supper.
Cheerfully, I might add!

He was plucking eyes from potatoes.

See?


After supper, Alan put on Daddy's shoes.

He reminds me of one of those wiggly-eyed pom-poms with feet.


We admired our tree.
I admired our tree while playing with my camera's settings:


We all played a little of this:


Read this book together:

Which made Daddy Buffalo think of a video on youtube to show Dale.

Alan watched too.


He didn't seem impressed.


He was a little perplexed:



And he certainly didn't approve!



Against Alan's recommendation, here is the video they watched. But don't say Alan didn't warn you!